This morning was rushed from the time the alarm went off. Actually I don't have an alarm I have two kids that come running into my bed ready for the day every morning by 6:00. I stumbled downstairs quickly started my morning coffee. I then got the kids each breakfast. As they sat down at the table with them I noticed dirty finger nails and grass stained bare knees from the prior evening's soccer practice. I announced to the kids we need to take a bath before we leave for the dentist. My son replied with "I just took a bath last...When did I take a bath?" Precisely my point son, as I herd them upstairs I am trying to figure out just when the last time I did bathe them. Goodness life has been so crazy lately I cannot even remember.
I get Ella started in the shower "not too hot, not too cold mom" then get Avery in the tub. While they are getting clean or at least cleaner than they started because I don't have time to observe I quickly throw a little bit of make up and brush my hair. I send Ella to find clothes as I get Avery a towel. Ella comes back wearing a batman shirt, brothers jeans, and boxers instead of her underwear. Insert roll of eyes, send kids downstairs.
Downstairs I toss Avery's reading book at him and each a pair of socks. Sign his homework sheet. Pack lunches and backpacks and it is time for the dentist.
After the dentist I drop Avery off at school, and get Ella to school just in time. When Ella and I get to school she has a little melt down. She is a little overwhelmed from all the rushing and needs some time with mommy. I think about the mess from the am and how the plumber is coming and I want to get it cleaned up. I also look at my six year old and remember what it feels like to be overwhelmed and just need a minute to be with someone familiar. I spend 15 minutes with her in her classroom while she eats her snack. When I get home I still have a few minutes to clean up but I leave it. I think back to Ella and the way she looked at me and how I almost left her because I felt I needed to clean for the plumber. I think about the messy morning and how frustrated I was by the time we walked out the door. I decide to embrace the messy. Because if I am too focused on the messy I will miss more special moments like I had with Ella today. I will continue to be overwhelmed with mornings like today and not take time to just be.
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